i think im gonna fall into depression soon.
sigh. can't seem to settle down and study!
prelims is drawing nearer every second, its only 5 weeks to english/chem prac, and 6 wks to the main papers.
yet what am i doing? i'm trying to ground myself ie. stop going out unless neccessary(family, tuition). maybe i'm not going out with friends to eat/shop anymore but it doesn't mean that when i force myself to stay home i can study.
im trying to overcome that sense of frustation and panic i get at night when its only 10pm and my body tells me i need to sleep. TEN PM! urgh. rmbr i used to stay up to 1am+ to study for end years last year. its not that i don't want to or im lazy, its that i really can't keep my eyes open, or that i have a splitting headache, or i can't seem to absorb and do my work properly therefore i end up going to sleep. yucks.
and tv programmes aren't helping.
well at least i've stopped watching sg idol. haha. its too time-consuming. shall just update myself on the results and maybe watch occasionally. superband's ending soon. guess one hour per wk isn't that bad for the remaining 3 more wks. haha.
today is monday which means i am tired from jogging and means that i probably can't stay up beyond 10 sthg too. oh man. yucks.
and so many people are mugging alr. even though they don't mention in school you can tell its obvious. i kinda admire those people who are able to mug as and when they want to. though many people thinks i can mug like a cow if i want to its not true. like i'm trying to now but i can't that's why im getting very depressed.
shall not touch the computer at all after another 2 weeks or so. its time to stop.