im foreseeing a long period of unhappy days ahead.
i don't know how to be happy. for now.
i just feel as though i screwed up my long awaited summer holidays with my own hands.
feel like running away somewhere, somewhere far away where we dont have to worry about anything and anything at all. where we can just do whatever we like, everyday, everywhere, anytime without any restrictions of any sort, without any worries or obligations.

i want to undo all these but sadly its not possible.

mid july, please come quickly.