faded stars

2011-11-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

suddenly miss the vj swing.

where we can just sit there for an hour chatting, with true friends that you can always rely on.

friends that you truly want to go the extra mile to help, or do things you dislike just because you want to see them or talk to them.

emo-ness make me feel lost.

uni makes me sick.

so does the corporate world that we're gonna be thrown into.

where do i fit in? :(

tired....

2011-10-24T01:59:00.002+08:00

school's killing me slowly. really need a good break.

sometimes i really wonder whats the point of all these. sigh. why is everybody out there striving so hard, being so competitive, dying to do better than others, forcing everybody to live such a world where you have to ride on people to push yourself up. why are profs so stingy with giving As? why cant everybody just get As and Bs? so much for saying the process is more impt than the results.

is earning a lot of money really that important? is it really worth working insane hours and let your health suffer just to stay in a prestigious job/get a more prestigious job in future? i never once agreed with it but seems like nobody is really standing on my side.

life is so short. but sometimes i think everybody is kind of wasting it doing things they hate. so sad that we don really get a choice.

3 months later

2011-08-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

just to remind myself that my blog is not dead yet.

some recent things that happened:

finished my internship at deloitte! actually it was really fun, because of the company that was always there - lunches in big groups, making many new friends. as compared to working alone in a smaller company and having not much friends you can talk to at work. but gotta reconsider about audit after this internship.. dont wanna be stuck 3 years in a job that i hate and let my hair turn white haha.

casper was hospitalized after getting some inflammation in his pancreas? thanks to his nonsense eating habits -__- picking up every single rubbish on the ground during his walks. my parents spent a bomb on him haha.

i fell sick! :( horrible flu i think its the worst combi to have flu and ___ tog? makes you feel thoroughly sick. nose has been leaking non stop zzz. hate flu :( and its gonna spoil the rest of my damn short and precious holiday of 4 days :(

gone for tooth treatment last week. ultra pain! still have one more treatment session pending. not looking forward to it at all :(

on a happy note, i feel a lot happier starting school this sem. i think its after working for 2 months haha. you realise that school has so much more freedom. and that we should treasure the remaining 2 years of study before we are thrown out into the working world permanently with 9-6pm jobs. imagine waking up at 7am everyday like a routine and only leaving the office when the sun is about to set. argh.

life updates

2011-06-05T23:48:00.002+08:00

been some time since i blogged.

started working already at deloitte, so far work life's pretty good. walking to take 229 every morning and then trying to board the flooded train at bedok has become such a routine, i felt robotic when commuting everyday. =/ like just walking and walking without thinking what im doing and where im going.

still, internship is great because i have many friends, made many new friends from both nus and ntu. seeing namecards and tissues and newspapers and umbrellas used to chop seats at amoy street haha. getting used to deloitte's office. going out on engagement tomorrow to alexandra! hope it will be fun :)

tired :( a whole new week is starting again. weekends are really really precious.

oh yes, happy 23rd month to dear and i haha! :)

that's life

2011-05-05T00:40:00.002+08:00

you can't do anything, you have no choice.

self-reminder.

2011-04-26T01:22:00.004+08:00

"I have a golden retriever - because the angels were busy"

i have more than one angel in my life though! (:

2011-04-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

wish that from this moment on, money could fall down the sky

so that we don need to think of money when we want to make a decision

we don have to take the more painful choice because the other is too expensive

so that we don have to spend our entire life working and chasing after money

March&April

2011-04-17T12:55:00.002+08:00

went for wisdom tooth surgery. 2 more wisdom teeth to go. :(

(very) disappointed about bizcomm results. honestly thought i would do a bit better but ohwells. this mod is too subjective. or maybe my tutor doesnt like our group. =/

11 days to exam! prob cant study finish at this rate. lol. gotta stop slacking and using tons of excuses to tell myself i still have time or i need to rest.

2011-03-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

been a while since i updated. cant imagine how i used to update my blog almost everyday in the past. lol.

anyway life's been good and bad. many good stuff happened that i am grateful for. for one thing im glad i got to know new friends through bizcomm (and heard juicy news from them haha. ok maybe not that juicy since it was quite expected). sometimes maybe everything had a good side to it. grades are really not as important as making new friends.

another thing that made me happy was that Casper was so good today! lol. it was really amazing. for months Casper has been driving us crazy with his cheekiness, mischief, hyper-active nature and all in all not behaving like a typical dog would -_- today he was really very good, except for the parts where he ate some leaves that were on the floor and got distracted by the lily plants at the side. he finally showed signs of being able to walk calmly beside/behind you (even though its for short distances in the garden for now.) instead of always seeming to be chasing after something and walking you instead of you walking him.

of course i know probably by tomorrow morning he will be just as mischievous, eating up all the stuff he shouldn't, pouncing on people, biting our shirts and poo-ing at the wrong spots. but still, its comforting to know that he can be as good as tonight was. even my mum said she wanted to walk him. (my mum is super scared of dogs!)

for the bad things.. well. i don't really know what to say because its a pretty serious problem. but as much as i am upset and even heartbroken and partially angry, i cant really do much. i felt that i've done what i should have and certain things really need two hands to clap. still, i am still wishing for things to turn out fine.. even if its just at the surface. at least everybody can be happier.

ok, back to doing macro (after a break.) :D

Hachiko

2011-02-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

Moved to tears by this awesome true story.

2011-02-13T00:47:00.002+08:00

Going crazy listening to my macro econs prof teaching. argh. he's killing all my interest for econs.

i kinda miss fu qiang and his micro econs lessons. and his funny accent. a million times easier to listen and more interesting to listen than my current prof. and his wife is killing my interest for apb. lol. and the joke about how both of them probably compete at home about who reads the most newspapers. so happen both of them teaches the mods this sem.

"please, like i said, all of you must start reading newspapers. I hope everybody has started reading newspapers. "

i hear this EVERY SINGLE lecture -_-

miss my accounting mods!

travel dreams

2011-01-28T01:12:00.003+08:00

shall post a list of cities/places i wanna visit after i graduate. hahahaha. or rather, after i earn money to go overseas.

Geneva/Switzerland

Montreal/Canada

New York City/ US

Las Vegas

Stockholm/Sweden

Sydney/Australia

South Island/New Zealand

Tokyo/Japan

Just some to name. hahah. and i would love to visit London and Paris again though i've already been there. awesome places, would be great to visit during winter this time round and see snow. (:

why am i dreaming over here when im supposed to be looking at my macro notes. argh. but well. if i have lots of money, i would prob spend them travelling. haha. one of the best ways to spend your money. :D till then, happy dreaming.

2011-01-23T13:42:00.002+08:00

oh gosh.

okay, must get on my feet and back to reality.

i will survive this sem, no matter how difficult it may seem. you cant get nice mods every sem.

falling sick didnt help, missed lectures and slept for quite a few days cos of the drowsy medicine. now its time to buck up. argh.

everything will be fine.

2011-01-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

this place has become a place merely for ranting. realised my entries are becoming all complaints. ohwells. at least its a place for me to come and rant when its late in the night and i cant find anybody to pour out my thoughts to. ):

and to my friends who are still randomly reading my blog, im really happy and touched hehe. (:

what a bad day today is. hopefully, it has ended.

headache, body ache, horrible lecturers (i repeat, HORRIBLE) , and why on earth did i think i can survive a bio mod? im like committing suicide. all those alien bio terms are freaking me out when everybody else seems to think they're damn basic and simple. and i need to get a C to SU. at this rate, i think an F is coming my way. the pouring rain and storm the entire afternoon added to the bad enough day. missing many 95s cos they're totally packed. squashed like sardines on the many many buses and trains i took today. and then going home to almost get my wrist bitten by casper. dear sick. dear sick. dear sick.

im so stressed out. ): all my notes and textbooks are just staring at me telling me to read them but i can't find the motivation anywhere. why are we reading textbooks before the 2nd week of school even starts man! ): oh no, i miss my accounting mods. ): im so glad im in accounting i guess, the best choice i ever made.

and then again, why are we paying a few thousand each sem to fund salaries of professors who spend one hour nagging at us to read the newspaper (... i want to hear by next week all of you are reading newspapers. please, you HAVE to read the newspaper, you have to start reading now...") and telling us to keep quiet? (... please dont talk to your friend, it disturbs me... today all of you have been very good, this is the kind of behaviour i'd like to see...") and also profs who cant freaking pronounce words properly and teaching as though everybody has bio background?

school term, again

2011-01-12T00:44:00.003+08:00

i can predict biz comm is going to be the nightmare this sem.

the module is like everything i dreaded. ahhh. save me please.

why am i so pessimistic when the lesson hasnt even started ? need some positive attitude!

the two gem lessons today were quite alright. changing landscapes was quite boring but i like geography. but then, there's not much geography in this gem even though its from the geog department haha. maybe i shd take a geog breadth.

genes and soc was quite interesting but the prof drives me crazy! need to decipher his accent AND the content since i don have any bio background haha. so lucky i have qiuqi to explain everything to me on the spot. if not i think i would have learnt nothing.

actually this sem wouldnt be too bad. i figured the only reason why im so sianded and worried is bizcomm. no close friends in there, only acquaintances, could be good and bad cos i can make new friends. but i think its the module content that is freaking me out. omg. hate all the letter writing and oral presentation and stuff. argh. why is it a compulsory mod man. ):

2011-01-03T01:50:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh

i wanna go overseas!

2010-12-29T01:01:00.002+08:00

i feel so moody. ):

school is sucky cos im so lost about my modules. not sure what to bid, not sure if i can survive taking a bio mod when i dont even have bio O lvls, not knowing anybody in my bizcomm sectionals and not being able to swap it (yet).

equally sucky, or maybe even worse is my teeth. why is there such a thing as wisdom tooth. im so scared. ): its bothering me so much. ):

just sent jinci off. i dont know if im regretting my decision not to go for exchange. actually if time really does go back, i would still stay in singapore. there are just people too precious over here. as much as i want a air ticket to escape from all these rubbish in singapore, especially right now.

holidays are slipping away

2010-12-23T11:22:00.002+08:00

only about 2 weeks and 3 days left to enjoy?

and there comes school with the horrible mods (im seriously gonna hate biz comm), and whats new this morning, my exam ends on 6 may. wth?! i wonder when i can get a good exam timetable that ends earlier. so im gonna finish my exams on 6th, a friday, and start work probably on monday. wow. sat and sun is so much time to enjoy my "holidays" after exams.

every single sem its like that. thanks nus admin.

casper is getting on fine, even though hes naughty and smelly. haha. hope he grows up to be a wonderful dog.

casper's havoc

2010-12-19T01:44:00.002+08:00

oh no.

casper is driving our family nuts.

argh. ):

wonder if all puppies are like that, or whether our training suck too much.

but then, i dont believe all singaporean families can train their puppies that well given the fact that singaporeans are generally all quite busy. ):

really hope things get better!

2010-12-05T01:18:00.003+08:00

ahhh i dont like lizards!! ):

actually i dont like bugs of all kinds. zzz.

and yay, exams are over! lol. even though i think they were kinda bad.. not that i did very badly, but in comparison to the smart people around me i probably did badly. the bell curve kills when everybody around you are all so smart. still, i hope things arent as bad as i thought. :/ dont even dare to look at the finance answers even though they were out for pretty long already. lol. just afraid to see everything so unfamiliar. argh.

for now, im just gonna try to enjoy myself as much as i can this holidays. (:

2010-11-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

okay.. so i got owned by ACC3601 and SSA1201 today.

i shall admit defeat to winston kwok. he just have a way to get 90% of the cohort tricked/owned by him.

and SS was just too difficult. haha. crapped my way through without really knowing half of what i was writing.

time to start my engine for audit, tax and finance. exams not over yet!

2010-11-25T02:21:00.002+08:00

i think im going crazy.

2010-11-22T23:25:00.002+08:00

if one day i get enough money to live a life that is good enough for me and my family, i will retire from my job and go and work at a pre-school, or a childcare center.

always felt that it is a very enjoyable place to work. or rather it isnt really work when you are so happy spending time with the kids.

some day... haha.

kankai a bit, and you will live a much happier life. something i learnt and hope to keep to it. (:

afterall, what is most important is really you and your loved ones being happy together. the rest may upset you but they are all secondary, right?

examssssss. at the beginning of the sem i liked my modules and hope they can pull up my cap. but after the sem came and now that its coming to an end, i changed my mind. haha. i think im gonna do badly for it. sighs

one week to exams!

2010-11-18T23:52:00.003+08:00

yay i plucked out my wisdom tooth! feel very happy! haha

surprisingly it wasnt painful. except for the injection pinch.

exams are coming. in fact i have exactly one week left to study. and two of my modules are untouched. ARGH. tax is killing me. audit is horrible as well just that we havent had enough practice and tuts to see its horror yet. i dont understand foreign income at all.

im quite perfectionistic so i see my dad's pain about certain things.. but then again, since we cant do much, i guess we have to force ourselves to close one eye and kan kai a bit. even though it sucks plenty. oh well. hope things will be fine in the end!

2010-11-13T23:16:00.002+08:00

my wisdom tooth is hurting like nobody's business ):
why has it got to come at a time like this. when exams are about to start!
im afraid of extracting my wisdom tooth. but i have no choice. sigh. and when it gets too painful u just wanna get the tooth out of ur mouth.

im just hoping there's no complications. worried worried worried.

life sucks. when exams are around the corner, all you feel is your teeth and gum hurting like mad. and its so tiring and difficult to study. you feel like burning all your notes and just sleeping the whole day away.

this is crazy. ):

2010-11-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

can't wait to fully furnish up my new room

and have to slowly get used to it.

the past few days havent been good.

i need to learn to control my temper better. being in a bad mood is no excuse.

i have also came to a conclusion to shut up and solve problems myself. i think i can do it. (ill try my best) this way i wont keep getting scolded.

thank God tax presentation went alright.

now its 3601.. argh.

i need to do up a "list of topics to study" for the coming end term exams. maybe that will make me more motivated to start studying proper and keep on studying till 2nd december.

2010-10-24T18:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes i really wish that money can fall down from the sky

then we wont have to go to school, we wont have to work, we wont have to worry, we wont have to argue, we wont have so much troubles.

but then, if there isnt the money thing, the world wouldnt exactly work right?

and we wouldnt have met the important people present in our lives now. =)

even when times are bad..

2010-10-19T23:04:00.005+08:00

i've been feeling really stressed for the whole week. tax and corp accting projects are bugging me constantly cos i havent started and there's finance quiz to study. and i only read one chapt argh. the easiest chapt somemore. lol. not to mention the backlog of tax tutorials..

the finance quiz median is 44/50. sometimes i think biz people are really crazy muggers. for a moment i was happy with my score. but after hearing what my prof said about 1/4 of the people getting 46/50 and above the happiness was instantly gone. haha

and i need to pack!! realise i have a lot a lot a lot of rubbish in my house that i want to take with me to my new home. there's only 10 days left to pack with all the sch work ongoing.

still, in the midst of all these, im still glad i have these people with me:

dear who has never once left my side (:

couldnt survive this sem without them (:

the harmoc peeps (:

my mum!

and my dad and brothers enjoying themselves at the marina sands pool lol!

2010-10-15T00:02:00.002+08:00

feeling a little sad.

but everything will be fine in the end, right?

now i really cant bear to leave mandarin. ):

sigh.

2010-10-06T02:35:00.003+08:00

i am so tired ):

missing many many many people out there. ):

moving house in about 3 weeks' time.

sometimes, i feel excited. and then i feel like i cant bear to leave my current home. i love my current room very much actually. a bit she bu de. lol. plus all the memories of this home and the facilities downstairs. and then there's a mixture of being afraid, feeling lost, full of uncertainty~ afterall i've been staying here for more than 14 years.

then again, hope our new house will turn out very nice and comfortable to stay in. hope we adapt well and be happy! (:

2010-10-03T12:39:00.001+08:00

ironically, i had the least sleep over the weekend when my weekends are usually used to catch up on sleep. thanks to SS project, mid terms and my backache.

2010-09-30T23:29:00.001+08:00

我坐在椅子上　看日出復活
我坐在夕陽裡　看城市的衰弱
我摘下一片葉子　讓它代替我
觀察離開後的變化

曾經　狂奔　舞蹈　貪婪的說話
隨著冷的濕的心腐化

帶不走的丟不掉的　讓大雨侵蝕吧
讓他推向我在邊界　奮不顧身掙扎
如果有一個懷抱勇敢不計代價
別讓我飛　將我溫柔還洋

原諒我飛　曾經眷戀太陽

2010-09-11T22:43:00.003+08:00

seeing really pretty photos of friends who went overseas to places such as italy, hawaii, US makes me wanna go overseas very much.

bring a camera along and just snap photos all day long. just enjoy the overseas air and really forget about studies and everything. be a happy tourist and have a laid-back life for at least a short period of time.

i still remember the yellow fields in England and our dream. (:

2010-09-08T00:02:00.002+08:00

today was a really bad day. i think it started off badly cos i really didnt have enough sleep. havent slept in ages near 3am having to wake up at 8.30 the next day. okay fine im a pig. haha. need to sleep my 7 hours daily!

super tired the entire day, very very stressed out for audit presentation (actually dont know why we need to be stressed) till i kept dreaming of it even during a nap just now. haha. must be all the panic attacks even during finance lect today that our content was wrong. i think we were just being too paranoid. the grade was kind of disappointing but i guess we really didnt deserve an A. sigh

now its the entire tutorial week cycle again.

and we need to film a video clip for SS presentation bcos ours falls on elearning week?! its like MNO all over agn with a much tighter deadline. yucksss

school

2010-09-05T00:48:00.003+08:00

its only 4 weeks in school and im already dreaming about the december holidays.

or any holidays where i dont have to think about school work at all. zzz. dont like all the fuss about class part (why do we have to speak for the sake of getting marks man? its a dumb idea.) and don like to be thinking about having to do tutorials and read all my untouched readings all the time.

we keep complaining about school but i think work could be much worse.

i wish it can be holidays everyday.

2010-08-19T00:02:00.004+08:00

heart pain heart pain heart pain x 10000 ):

school for the first week odd have been not bad... until this morning.

big sigh. my heart is still aching ):

trying to cheer myself up by thinking that something far worse could have happened. haiz. still, doesnt help much in making me less sad. the worst thing is there could be a 1000 reasons why this incident could have been avoided. saddens me more.

2010-08-03T01:09:00.000+08:00

Thank God for his amazing grace (:

sen chihiro

2010-07-31T23:47:00.003+08:00

finally watched spirited away! and i like it a lot! feels like an animation classic. i used to think it was scary when i watched a very small part at the beginning many years ago when my school showed it to us at the sch hall.. haha but its really not. it actually has a very simple and heartwarming storyline. somehow i feel like watching it again!

school is reopening~~~ ): i still havent found anybody to swap timetables with me. well. one week for me to learn to be brave. sighs. and independent for the coming semester.

turn around

2010-07-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

thanks NUS, for spoiling the rest of my holidays

2010-07-14T00:07:00.001+08:00

i wish i can freeze all those moments and that time would not just pass just like that

the real hols again!

2010-07-10T00:47:00.003+08:00

last day of work today! it felt like everything passed so quickly. i still rmbr when i first went to work on the first day and i sat in the FC's office for more than 2 hours and nearly fell asleep listening to her talk. but then the following weeks felt so long. work was alright sometimes but very boring at times. i hated parts of the job like doing all the saikang thrown to me, esp by this auntie which i pretty much disliked. lol. didnt like to do things for her but she loves to push all the shit work that she's lazy to do to me. like digging out documents for the auditors or other tedious and completely brainless work. but some of the other people in the company are really nice and patient in teaching me, esp during the first two weeks of work when i was totally blur about everything and using the accounting system. learnt a little, slacked plenty, slept plenty, getting really annoyed at the auntie who keep throwing shit work at me~ hating wednesdays cos the lunch food is the worst~ loving all the fridays~ haha well. i was trying to predict how office life will be next time when we graduate. the 8.30 - 5.30 kind of job.. argh. hopefully work doesnt start too soon. lol.

040709

2010-07-04T23:31:00.003+08:00

the day that changed my life (:

a wonderful 20th

2010-06-23T01:01:00.003+08:00

im 20 already! somehow 20 sounds much much older than 19. like 19 still sounds like you're a teenager, still young, but 20 sounds like you're nearly adult. cant believe i already lived 20 years on this earth. lol.

i had a wonderful wonderful 20th (: love all my presents from dear and my family! especially dear's very nice presents with so much love and effort put into each and every one of them. i like all of them very much! (: wheeeee. it was a really fun and unforgettable day on monday, and i enjoyed every single second of it. thank you dear, for giving me such a memorable birthday (: miss it already!

thank you to all my friends who remembered my birthday and wished me! really touched by some of the sincere smses i recieved, and some from friends i havent seen for some time but wished me very nice messages too. (: i noticed that facebook is really replacing smses though. the number of smses i received really decreased like mad and everybody is using fb instead. lol. kinda miss those simple sms days!

one summer's day

2010-06-10T00:05:00.002+08:00

kept falling asleep at work these few days. i could even type and fall asleep while typing. hahah. i think its super obvious. 10am - 11am and 2pm - 3pm are the worst periods. just cant stop nodding away and i kept making a lot of mistakes even if its just plain data entry.
boring ):

holidays don't feel like holidays at all cos it seems even worse than school days. yucks. better enjoy the remaining of our 2-3 studying years before the horrible working life starts. then there's no end and we can't slack so much because there would be much more competition at work and you need to fight for promotions. don't like all those..

suddenly i feel like i want a tai tai life. hahahaha

happy 11th month! (:

2010-06-06T00:05:00.003+08:00

very very nice drama! =) i think the plot is quite fresh and xiao xiao bin is so cute. haha. recommended!

results are out! i did a little better than last sem which pulled up my cap by 0.1. small difference, but still an improvement and im really happy for my managerial accounting and marketing. =) and congrats to dear who did amazingly amazingly well once again. so proud of you (:
and wow, we are year 2 already! after working, i realise studying is much more enjoyable. hahaha. people can never learn to be content.

and lastly, i had a wonderful 11th month (:

results results results

2010-05-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

mind cafe today was fun! (besides the barley part hahahahaha) i think the true colours game was quite funny. lol! lets go again! (: and plus our beloved yanyan's craving for dimsum. =)

been watching autumn's concerto and i think its a pretty nice drama. interesting plot and stuff. shall watch 2 episodes every weekend!

results are gonna be out on monday. gonna have to check results during work. lol. think im gonna do worse this sem. ):

can't wait for july to come

2010-05-28T00:19:00.005+08:00

work totally sucked today ): im so glad i didnt take up any admin jobs which i was desperately searching for in feb last year. i think if i did i would have died doing admin work. i was doing filing for about 7 hours out of the 9 hours of work today and i was at the verge of throwing the files at everybody in the office.. haha.
i enjoyed doing the matching of POs, even doing offsetting and updating masterfiles and preparing expense schedules. i think they are all very interesting. could be confusing/difficult to rmbr all the steps at the start when learning but after you get the hang of it it becomes simple and fun to do. compared to sorting and filing. yucks. the 30 - 40 cm high stack of payment vouchers and invoices is really a nightmare. sort them into the various banks and currencies, then sort according to the different files, then in numerical order, then slot them into the files one by one. totally disgusting! and there are like ten thousand different files everywhere in the office. i think 20 files for each of the 10 banks or something.. and the person just told me to find the files myself. and they are seriously all over the place. like some in cupboards (some cupboards are locked?!) some in random people's desk.. maybe shredding the documents when i cant find the file to file it in is a good idea. since i almost shredded a check for the company last week. hahahahaha. just kidding.

the financial controller keeps telling me that an accountant's job is all about paper documents and its not nice to do at all. the only rewarding thing is the salary is higher. but she says im gonna hate my work very much if i cannot stand documentation and so on.. actually so far i think its still alright. the only thing i hated was filing actually (ok thats part of documentation, just the saikang part) so well, hope its a good sign that im on the right path. haha.

i love this song! its in jielun's new album (:

love the bridge part a lot!
心碎了一地　捡不回从前的心跳　伤心过去我无力逃跑

accounts intern?

2010-05-20T23:57:00.003+08:00

work this time is so.... different.
last year it was so slack and barely any pressure. i cud waste as much as 2 - 3 hours everyday just stoning, slacking and surfing the net, talking on msn. but this time it feels like a real intern.

working at the accounts department on the 5th floor. but sadly bcos there is no table available for me yet on the 5th floor, im being shooed around everywhere to sit at any empty desk of perm staff that are on leave/have not arrived yet.. and then getting shooed to another place when that staff comes. sad. and then there's my table at the 4th floor where i sat last year but then it is inconvenient because its too far from accts dept and the computers there dont have accounting software.

actually i must say i did learn quite a bit even in just two days of work. tried doing up simple audit expense schedules using the GL which is computer-generated. i took a super long time to understand the GL cos it was so messy and had a lot of codes and accruals. it didnt look in the least like the GLs we saw in AIS.. haha. but then i began to like to prepare these schedules bcos at least i could stay at the 4th floor and do them in a nicer environment. the GL also got easier to read after doing a few schedules.
today was the really tiring day. started off by doing one schedule for the financial controller but after that, i was asked to try to prepare the morning's deposit slips/checks from payments by debtors. and i kept writing the numbers wrongly. then there was some admin work of printing and filing, and then later updating the author master file using some accounting software. quite cool! but it gets super tiring and theres one whole stack to complete.. argh.

not sure whats going to come my way tomorrow. its been only two days but honestly i feel a little bit tired out already. maybe this is a real intern's life. haha. being pushed to learn within a very short time and with a very brief and quick explanation, having to figure out things yourself and be more thick-skinned.. keep asking the mentor again and again and again when you duno or do your work wrongly.

i almost forgot that harmoc concert is tomorrow. haha oops.

2010-05-17T23:38:00.004+08:00

new quilt to use tonight! =) happy!
caught 15 prawns today, twice our usual rate! yay! i think prawning is fun!

starting work on wednesday.. i feel that even though its the same company, the experience and feeling going to work everyday is going to be so different. i suppose last year's 3 months of work at wspc was far too enjoyable to be even described as 'work'. i go there everyday happy and enjoying every slacking moment. hahah. coming in the morning, then going pantry very very often, reading newspaper + drink milo + breakfast until 9.15am before starting work, chatting on msn all the time and doing stupid quizzes on fb to kill time, going pantry again, going out early for lunch and coming back late, playing table tennis and anyhow whacking the ball into mirrors and walls, shutting down the com at 5.37pm sharp when work ends at 5.45pm. can only say that it would probably be the most enjoyable work i will ever get in my lifetime.

well, whether this two months of work will be enjoyable or not.. i hope i do get something out of it, whether its experience, learning, friends or whatsoever.

and of course, my favourite time of the day will become 5.30 every evening =)

results out on 31st may! i keep dreaming of exams despite the fact that it's been over for almost two weeks. lol. dreamt that i didnt check my seat number for AIS exam last night and couldnt find my seat and that i left something behind in nus and panicked thinking i wont be back in nus for 3 months and can't collect them until august. hahahh. the one before this was dreaming that i forgot to bring my stats cheatsheet into the exam hall and i was thinking whether or not to go downstairs to take my cheat sheet from my bag or whether i can do without it. hhahaha. exam phobia?

downhill

2010-05-16T01:53:00.005+08:00

im foreseeing a long period of unhappy days ahead.
i don't know how to be happy. for now.
i just feel as though i screwed up my long awaited summer holidays with my own hands.
feel like running away somewhere, somewhere far away where we dont have to worry about anything and anything at all. where we can just do whatever we like, everyday, everywhere, anytime without any restrictions of any sort, without any worries or obligations.

i want to undo all these but sadly its not possible.

mid july, please come quickly.

i wish i could turn back time

2010-05-13T23:38:00.002+08:00

suddenly, so many things no longer seem meaningful to me.

prawning

2010-05-13T00:23:00.004+08:00

went prawning today at bishan with dear.
we caught.. 7 prawns! LOL! over about 2 hours.
but thats not bad cos we're first-timers with only one rod.. hahah.
we'll have another and better shot!
this time we'll bring it home to boil/steam. cos the bbq stove there is so dirty. and we dont dare to poke the prawns with the satay sticks while they are still alive. =/ haha! i think its quite fun though! =) anw they shd offer to buy the prawns we caught. hahaha. even if its 5 prawns for $1 also can. since we didnt really dare to eat the prawns and don't know how to handle and clean them properly. maybe cooking at home wud be better.

i am the luckiest person in the world

2010-05-11T22:05:00.003+08:00

feeling quite shitty today. ):

fluey and heaty. and my skin's dry like nobody's business.

):

really really hope that dear and i can both get into wspc.

yay time to play!

2010-05-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

the horrible 2.5 week exam span has ended!! super super long. we are the very first to start (sat, 9am paper) and almost the last to end. draggy and torturing but yay its over! my brain officially told me it cant absorb anymore info yesterday when i tried to read through AIS again and again.. haha. and so i just decided to whack today without much studying..
first question already killed me i think. but luckily MIS was quite easy (besides the mcq cos i didnt study enough) so ohwells. i hope he accepts the rubbish i wrote for the other questions then. haha

i was telling my dad today then i would be happy if i can just maintain my lousy-enough cap this sem. haha. fat hopes about trying to reach 3.9 or 4.0.

but really feel very blessed that i have dear and all my friends supporting me and encouraging me. (: it would have been so horrible without all of you.

happy 10th month to us! (:

:)

2010-05-02T20:11:00.001+08:00

dear jiayou! :) 3 more days we go take photos lo~~ :)

):

2010-05-02T19:37:00.003+08:00

ARGH JIU MING ):

how am i supposed to memorise AIS?
cant memorise, can't apply - i cant imagine what my grade will be.
and everybody is so smart. the bell curve is going to kill me.

very scared of stats because if i screw up this module im basically just screwed up for the sem. ):

stress is something you give to yourself.
but how not to feel stressed when you are so saturated you can't absorb any further academic content yet you aren't anywhere near prepared for the exams?

AIS AIS STATS STATS AIS STATS AIS STATS

2010-04-30T23:32:00.004+08:00

why am i in a post-exam holiday mood already!
totally sick of studying ):
but i think my grades this sem is gonna suck big time.
feel particularly sad about MS cos i felt that the stupid pay-off utility qn was fatal. making a stupid mistake for utility + duno wth the p and 1-p payoff thing was about = there comes my B or B- ): i just felt i could have done better. the paper wasn't even difficult. sigh. maybe thats why its gonna kill me.

i duno how on earth im going to memorise the entire AIS chunk when my memory is so lousy and im in such a slack mood already. and havent started on stats.

sad.

always seeing all the very nice sceneric photos posted by people overseas + tv shows showing very nice places makes me really feel like going overseas, very much. USA has many of those places, with all the countrysides, full of green plains and lakes and mountains. new zealand, switzerland.. even china has such nice places. i wanna go travel for a long long time outside~ with you~ (:

halfway there

2010-04-27T15:17:00.002+08:00

MA was a mad rush throughout and i kept making careless mistakes for every single qn -_- bad condition to do the paper. quite unsure for many parts and i think the paper is really quite tricky compared to the mock. haha. same as mid terms, the sample paper was so easy but the real paper sucks. but anw, i still love MA. hahahah. i acty find it quite interesting. am i mad?

marketing is just pure heavy content. i can barely absorb anything i read and during the exam i had to keep flipping to the tb for mcq qns to check. really really unprepared. and then the open ended qns were kind of weird, asking you describe your VALS profile.. i wonder who really rmbr-ed. probably 2/3 of the the students copied from the textbook.. and i think hes going to get similar answers for all those qns that u can copy from the tb cos everybody wud prob just do that. argh. not a good thing.the ethics qn was so weird, wad body parts and blood -_- sounded like i was writing a nonsensical load of GP-ish stuff. well. sadly predicting a B for mkt already ):

just doing MS now.. all the textbook qns. haha. feel very slack somehow. this is bad. and i still have 2 papers that i havent started studying for. haha.

we love MA!

2010-04-23T19:35:00.004+08:00

yay managerial acc exam tml! HAHA!
i dunno why i am so slack this sem.
but just cant wait for exams to be over! (:

健忘

2010-04-16T00:45:00.004+08:00

exams are making me sad.
many things are making me HAPPY!

it doesnt help that my brain cells are dying everyday.
even those cells containing the stuff i just studied today
could be half gone after i sleep tonight.

feel so lost.

2010-04-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

still feeling a little affected by the incident. and regretting it a lot.

anw ya tracey is right. we shdnt lose ourselves in the horrible world out there.. so maybe i shall rephrase my sentence to i did not learn to protect myself from the world outside. haha. a basic skill we should have known after one year in uni.

well at least i wont repeat the dumb thing to anyone again especially you.
(hopefully)

kinda stressed out by everything im studying.. every module seems very screwed suddenly.
i'd better get my honours..
or maybe i should just get myself out of accounting.

2010-04-11T03:20:00.005+08:00

i cant believe i did such a stupid thing.
even though i really did it out of good will.
cant believe i have not even learnt this after one year of uni life. im still living in my naive world.
hence the consequence.

haiz

2010-04-09T23:44:00.000+08:00

i hate saturday lessons ):

the world is getting so so weird.

night fury

2010-04-04T00:13:00.003+08:00

awesome (:
night fury is so cute!

Can you feel the love tonight

2010-03-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

There's a calm surrender to the rush of day
When the heat of the rolling world can be turned away
An enchanted moment, and it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior just to be with you

And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best

There's a time for everyone if they only learn
That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn
There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors
When the heart of this star-crossed voyager beats in time with yours

<3
i want to travel around the world with you and only you.

cap?

2010-03-25T23:45:00.003+08:00

actually, there's really no difference between a cap 4 and a cap 3.7, or even 3.5.
Both get you an honours.
Theres also no difference between honours and non-honours if you're doing stuff like accounting and even business. because work experience is much more valuable then your grades on paper.

on a more meaningful perspective,
there is no difference between a cap 5 and a cap 3
because grades are barely anything in your life.
how about the more important things like your loved ones and your friends and even simply enjoying your life instead of spending it slogging away?
those cant be graded by an A or B or C or F. they are priceless and worth so much more than achieving great results. or achieving great things.

I guess so long as we can get out of uni to secure a job, in a matter of years all these 'grades' wouldnt really play a part in your life anymore.

so the conclusion is, lets stop getting upset over our grades so long as we tried. and also not to mug so hard until you forget all the more important things in your life.

i find it a bit ironic blogging this post esp when i looked down at the number of entries i've posted complaining about academic-related things.. haha.
i'm still learning! maybe in the future i will still get worried and stressed over academic work but well. shall remind myself now and then.

(:

free cone free cone!

2010-03-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

No more AIS project yay!
No more marketing presentation!
left with marketing report, marketing individual assignment, MA project, MIS individual assignment

and then its the tons of backlogged tutorials + ongoing tutorials and then exams.

slowly slowly..

anyway its free cone day tomorrow! time really flies. i can still remember last year's april free cone day so clearly. (: meaningful!

blessed to have you here with me

2010-03-19T02:42:00.002+08:00

terrible week.
coming back to school everyday to do projects. staying late after school to do projects. having no time to do any tutorial at all. MA was disappointing. MS was screwed. so stressed about AIS project. reaching home thinking i can finally prepare for tml's mkt presentation and tie up the loose ends for AIS project. then realising my com totally died. i cant even on it. and i have one project due next week, mkt report and individual assignment on the next, MIS on the next next.. and my com died. argh. i think the laptop needs 2 - 3 wks to be repaired. All my documents, photos, music.. esp those in the recent one or two months.
this is so demoralising. ):

i am so glad i have your hand to hold after every upsetting day, so glad i can cry out all my problems to you even in the late nights, so glad that you are here for me no matter what happens. I love you so much.

happy 243th day

2010-03-06T12:55:00.002+08:00

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street

feel so lost suddenly.
i wanted to do better this sem but im losing touch.
some of the modules are driving me crazy.
MS is so difficult. marketing is a big question mark as to what we are learning.
and the many many projects and assignments are driving me mad.

im gonna dream of the beautiful home in a beautiful place full of flowers and sunshine with a beautiful you again.

2010-02-26T23:56:00.001+08:00

i am so tired.

groans.

2010-02-24T23:30:00.001+08:00

screw marketing project.
screw mid terms.
):
my mid terms are like super gone case. sigh.

midterms horror

2010-02-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

my last post was about the start of the long break. and this post is a reminder that its ending soon. hahaha. time flies.

it has been a great break though. even though i barely spent even 5 hours of the past 6 days studying =/, i enjoyed the cny days, spending a great valentine's day (:, going out, lazying at home(s), going to universal studio, everything~ (: this is supposed to be the break. with as little studying as possible.

haha. but after this good break, my mid terms seem so screwed. havent started studying! argh. and i havent even completed my MA tut and stats tut (3 stats tuts actually). what more studying for the 3 mid term papers. sounds bad. only one week (with school and lessons) to mug. and i feel so lazy and tired the whole time. feel like just nua-ing at home.. hahaha.

its valentine's day! (and lunar new year!)

2010-02-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

a really special day (:

enjoy the long break everybody!

housewife

2010-01-28T23:50:00.004+08:00

suddenly felt very stressed today. first time i truly felt the stress since school reopened. feeling so lost during both lectures today and not being able to do the tutorial questions suck ):
need to relieve the stress..

its hard to balance everything.

i need to throw my pessimism away. but its inborn. is it?

i really want to just be a farmer. own a piece of land with strawberries and banana trees and exchange fruits with neighbours. haha. i think we only learn to appreciate such simple bliss when we are born in a complicated world.

P.S.我爱你

2010-01-27T00:01:00.001+08:00

我想要成为你的眼
把最美的风景
收进你的心中
我想要成为你的手
好让我从现在到以后
占有你温柔一刻不放过
恨不得把明天没收
让你永远不会变动
专注的爱着我

我爱你没有保留
我爱你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲伤值得忍受
我爱你不是冲动
生命尽头反正一场空
只要你记得我们那么爱过

我要替你收集笑容
怕未来快乐变得贵重
要是少了我你有多寂寞

我忘不掉你第一次吻我

feel so touched whenever i hear this song. (:

2010-01-22T01:36:00.002+08:00

i will learn to be strong however difficult it may be.
because your words touched me so much and because you are by my side and will never leave me no matter what happens now and in the future.

itchy itchy

2010-01-12T13:00:00.002+08:00

itchiness is unbearable. argh.
i think i rather have my whole body aching then itching.

first day of school started and i already fell asleep halfway through the 2nd lecture. not a good sign. hahaha.

school, school, school

2010-01-09T17:13:00.002+08:00

school's reopening in approximately 1.5 hours. ARGH.
i got tons of complaints actually, about the sucky timetable ( i know we end on 2pm on 3 days but sat lessons and 8am lects and the friday 7 hour tut is just terrible), the modules we're going to take and everything but then, i guess complaining arent going to change anything and i've complained quite a lot already. hahahaha. life goes on. lets just hope everything will be fine in the end. not living up to my expectations for my cap score for the previous sem has somehow given me slightly more motivation to study harder this sem but seeing the syllabus and stuff dampens my mood. ahhh.

feeling a bit sorry about not meeting some of my friends often. i guess 24 hours a day is just not enough to catch up with everybody, including my family. but it really doesnt mean i dont cherish you guys. hopefully things will improve. ill try my best to come for more outings!

jiayou to everybody starting school, or smu friends like yanyan who already started.

and wishing dear a quick and complete recovery~ (: love.

happy new year!

2010-01-01T02:44:00.002+08:00

its year 2010! a great start to the year and a great end to 2009 with my very first out-of-home countdown with dear~ (: the fireworks are very very nice! and fireworks will always have a great significance to me. special meaning (:

2009 has really been a great year! starting with working at the childcare center (since dec last year) with my lovely P1 kids. wenjie~! working at WSPC which was really great. thinking back, its really so amazing how things work out. searching through newspapers and sending so many job applications but all to be rejected/no answer and then deciding to work at wspc. and once i was there i recieved job offers. haha. but already hired. enjoying my time there so much with dear, zw and alex lol!

and then there was A level results, leaving wspc, europe trip which was pretty memorable (im sure i wanna go back to europe again!), foc camp, 040709 which marked a new beginning and changed my life forever (: 060709 which led to the start of our clip-timeline~ (:

uni started and life was tough, but again it made me appreciate the wonderful people around me so much more. missing plenty of friends out there, meeting up, outings, studying, studying, studying, exam,exam,exam~

holidays came and went in a flash. wish we had more time, but well, lets hope 2010 will be a great year!

to all my friends, especially jinci and yanru, thanks for brightening up my life so much. i am so glad i i met you people. and i want to always be great friends with you even when we grow up! (:

and of course to dear who changed my life~ i love you and lets look forward to the many blissful and happy years ahead of us together (:

2009-12-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

hey santa can you bring me something sweet

appreciating..

2009-12-22T13:45:00.002+08:00

sucky results, but a wonderful dear, fabulous friends and a loving family.

i am so lucky.

holidays' slipping by. far too quickly ):

my everything <3

2009-12-15T00:16:00.002+08:00

camp's finally over. hahahaha.
happy to be back and having time to spend with friends and of course dear whom i missed so much. wheee!

sometimes, small things really matter a lot. and simple things can bring so much joy.

want to enjoy this holidays properly before the horrible school term starts again.

jinci and yanru! you are wanted! (:

2009-12-06T01:22:00.002+08:00

i want my long hair back. ):
really regretted going to the salon today. really really really regretted it so much. and the worst thing is it was neither a mistake by the salon nor my mistake.

it has just been a terrible day and i think my face hasnt been so black for such a long time. i was just giving a black face to whoever who tried to approach me to ask for donations or tried to give me fliers. and saying excuse me damn loudly to the people who were blocking the way. haha.
felt so much better after seeing dear. who is ever so talented at making me smile no matter how horrible im feeling. i love you so much.

Drives Students Crazy

2009-12-02T20:16:00.000+08:00

dsc2006 is a disgusting module.
zzzzzz. here comes my C.

22 hours and 40 minutes before exams end! (:

2009-11-28T18:57:00.001+08:00

its been a really stressful month. ):

after fa i kinda just slacked all the way. not absorbing much and dreading to memorise anything at all. getting all the sudden panic attacks and trying to convince myself its fine/i have a lot of time but actually time's really running out.
kind of feel mentally tired even though i should have had enough rest after econs.

holidays, please come.

2009-11-25T22:07:00.001+08:00

argh my phone's gone ): together with all the contacts and smses.
dear friends please msg me your number! (:

3 more papers left to go!

dear,

2009-11-14T19:20:00.002+08:00

i am so glad i have you with me (:

2009-11-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

i want to study hard
i want to study hard
i want to study hard
i want to study hard
i want to study hard
i want to study hard
i want to study hard

Partly Cloudly

2009-11-09T22:50:00.002+08:00

mugging time

2009-11-08T23:35:00.003+08:00

ITS TIME TO STUDY!
a countdown of exactly 2 weeks to first paper.
lets try to love biz law, accounting, OM, econs and MNO (:
havent started on the last three hahahaha. faints.

deardear, jiayou for A levels! it will be over very soon. (:

2009-11-02T00:03:00.002+08:00

accounting is driving me nuts.
its really depressing when you try to understand and do the tuts but dont know how to do. and for those you managed to write some kind of answer, your answers arent right like 3/4 of the time, or only partially right. especially when you spent a lot of time doing, it gives you the feeling that its not even worth doing the tut, even if you managed to find time to do.
feel very dumb sometimes really. dear brain, please pull up your socks~
exams start on 23 nov and the first paper is accounting.
it will be a miracle if i dont flunk it ):

its raining

2009-10-31T20:35:00.002+08:00

rain, please go away.

my sister's keeper is a great movie.
should go catch it people (:

can you feel the love tonight

2009-10-26T00:30:00.002+08:00

Can you feel the love tonight
the peace the evening brings
the world for once in perfect harmony
with all its living things

so many things to tell her
but how to make her see
the truth about my past, impossible
she'd turn away from me

he's holding back, he's hiding
of what i can't decide
why won't he be the king i know he is
the king i see inside

i want to watch lion king again!
(:
i love disney songs man.

feel very happy tonight and dear too (:
love you so much.

projs, assignments, presentations, tuts

2009-10-25T19:08:00.007+08:00

spending 4 hours on econs tutorial has sucked up all my brain power for today.
argh. and theres still so many things to do.
i cant even do accting tuts. how to do the project qns! yucks.
everything is coming at one time. and im not catching up.
its really been very stressful this month.

i miss all my friends ): jiayou friends! whether in uni or army! yanyan jiayou! jc jiayou! =) miss you two so much!

i wanna go overseas! cant wait for harmoc chalet yay =)

webcam is fun (:

sometimes i really want a very simple life, just spending it with somebody you love and all ur friends and family. i think the more we grow up, the more we want to lead a simple life without worries of any sort. and you dont have to be too rich to enjoy that. haha. who thinks the same way as me? sometimes i think in uni, especially in business course, we live amongst a whole lot of high achievers and competitive people it makes you feel so lost and not knowing what you are doing there.

2009-10-14T00:04:00.002+08:00

i think everybody needs a break.

2009-10-10T14:29:00.000+08:00

with you, my perspectives have all changed (:

DSC term paper is disgusting.

2009-10-08T00:33:00.003+08:00

i want all this unhappy things to go away~

i think i sound like a kid.
but sometimes i really wanna become a kid again.

things will only get tougher.

and we both had a great 3rd month anniversary (: the little things that are actually so important to me and fills my life with much more meaning and love.
i love my number one so so much.

end of midterms (:

2009-10-04T13:34:00.004+08:00

yay mid terms are over! :D lol! even though its two short tests but i think it did bring plenty of stress. and now the thought of final exams are scaring me because they are going to be so much harder and there's so much things to study. its like another A level exam learnt in 3.5 months :x

and i had a great mid autumn festival.
even though there weren't lanterns, there was you. and that is enough to make my day. (:

and i am looking forward to 061009 (:

meeting yanyan and ys tonight! (: missed them plenty!

stressed~

2009-09-26T20:29:00.002+08:00

i wish we had one more week to study.

its hard to catch up.

how great would it be if things like teleporting machines and time machines really exist.

number one

2009-09-22T23:17:00.004+08:00

i wish i had more time. more time to study. more time to sleep. more time to relax. haha. and most importantly, more time to spend with dear. more time to spend with friends and my family.

barely impossible to even reach 2/3 of my studying target for recess weeks. moans.
and i wanted to revise EVERYTHING during recess week to catch up.

need to find some kind of motivation to keep me chionging.

i miss you guys..

you will always be my number one