its scary how some people's mood changes so drastically.

one moment ago, he was loving, smiling. it feels blissful that you have such a person with you, you could tease him, you could laugh at him and argue with him. the distance between was so close. as though you could talk about anything to him. he comforts you when you're in tears, he nags lovingly for you to go to sleep. you feel great warmth from him.

and then just a split moment later, he changes completely. he no longer wears a tired smile on his face, but instead he howls and yells at you, making you feel so distanced from him. you become afraid of him, you start to feel you dislike him. you dun want to be with him, to see his angered face everyday, and hear him nag at you endlessly and give the most unkindly comments that hurt you deeply. you start to miss somebody else badly, somebody whom you noe wouldn't treat you like that.

its saddening. that horribly short moment of happiness and warmth are gone, just in a matter of one day. he's changed back from the unexpected different self he maintained for 7 days.

i miss my mother.
i love both my parents. i really love them both.
its just that sometimes, i cant help but feel wronged and hurt by what they say.