I am falling to my knees
I need You Lord to breathe in me
My prayer is still the same

My heart is calling out Your name
Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace

Rain down on me
Rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain
Come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me

I'm longing just to see
Your power and Your majesty

Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace
Sweet anointing
Wash me over
Sweet anointing
Wash me over.

a family will always be a family.
even though we don't understand each other sometimes, even though we tend to yell in our anger and disappointment, even though parents dont trust their children, even though children get maligned and anger vented on. even though parents get mistaken, even though they quarrel and make mountains out of molehills, even with so many differences and disagreements.

i don't deny my disappointment. i don't deny i feel like complete shit right now. i dont even deny i feel like just getting out of the house, slamming all the doors and throwing all my books and just yell at everybody around me who get in my way.
i've kept my promise. i rejected EVERY single invitation. but i've never promised to not read the bible. never ever. what to i get in return? saying im possessed by a demon, saying i dont love the family, i dont love her, i dont acknowledge her and the endless things that leaves me feeling lost and heartbroken.
and after being so tired from school and tuition, i come home only to be scolded and upset by so many unneccessary things.
what do you do, when your own family dont trust you? despite keeping my promise, ive been maligned over and over again. every day when i reach home late, i'll be questioned. and everytime i go for tuition and come home slightly later, i get suspected. the kind of look i get, its heartbreaking.

but things will blow over, He is with me.
Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me. John 14:1
'We need to do all we should do along the way, our hearts should not be troubled wherever we are on the journey.
Jesus has gone on before us to prepare the way.'